I remember who the idiot I was talking about was, thanks to Prof. Theoharis. Aristotle was the dude who said that humans have to live together and create a society in order to survive efficiently. When people work together, it's easier to create a better environment for the collective, but it's harder to cater to the minorities. So majority overrules, and too bad for the rest of em. I don't mean to sound like a sore loser, but to hell with that. People can do what they freakin' want to. If the loner wants to be alone, leave the fellow alone. If the loner isn't alone by choice, tough, the dude's got make what he wants happen.

It's not necessarily always every man for himself. But it's not every man for every other person who falls into the same particular category. Why should we constantly have to 'represent our people'? That's just creating a fake stereotype. You do what you want. If a bunch of brown people happen to have the same habits, so be it. But why should one try to do something for the purpose of creating a reflection about others. Fake statistics are what bring about stereotypes in the first place. And the people who were whining about representing each other in the first place end up being the same people who whine about stereotypes. Don't blame the judges. We don't live to represent others that we have traits in common with. That just creates a mass. That's the mob theory. When people join together based on what they have in common, they are forced to assimilate what they don't have in common into the most common norm as well.

That's bullshit.


You're given an identity. And that's your responsibility. What you do with your facilities is what you represent.



... Crap, I have a journalism paper to write.

Two Books... And Then Some.

10:30 at night, and I'm the typical jackfruit who leaves all this reading to the last day I have to read it all, because I have to know all this for class the next day. Frankly, I prefer this system over the bullshit nightly homeworks from high school. No teacher ever stuck to the rubric. Ever. It was usually based on 'intuition' on how much the kid 'should' deserve. Pompous, righteous, 'I-deserve-better-than-this' jerks. Not that there weren't the few good ones, but most of them just suck as teachers and as people. Pick one. Friend or educator. Can't be both in this world, and especially not in the ghetto neighborhood I'm in.

Anyway, I finished a few awesome books recently. The first took me a few months, because I paid extreme attention to every word. "The Fountainhead" by Ayn Rand. Great book. Great philosophy, though I do think it is way more towards the idealistic end of the spectrum. Not the altruist 'idealism' that is more popular and universally accepted, but I really don't think people can handle or live up to that kind of criticism, meaning their own. Some famous idiot once said, I forgot who exactly, that it is in human nature to want and need the support and communication of and with others. I call bullshit. I call total bullshit. It's just easier to live on a community support system. This is why today's generation, including myself, is so fucking lazy. LAZYYYYYYY. Oh my god, it's not that they 'can't' or they 'don't feel up to' looking for the TV remote. They are LAZY! I mean, so am I, don't get me wrong. I love my technology, but if I'm hungry, I'll make my own food. If I'm reading, and I need help understanding a word, I'll look it up. And then some other fuckwit up and says 'obesity is contagious.' Oh my god. What!? NO. People are just too lazy to think for themselves, so when they see their friend getting fat, they can't help but join in on the conga line to the fast food restaurant. Please, don't bullshit yourselves. You don't get fat because some one else is fat. I'm allowed to say that! I'm not some toothpick twat. I'm overweight, not obese, but visibly overweight. So stop moaning and groaning lazy, careless fucks.

I started this entry in hopes of talking about some books I read, but it turned into a rant, because I'm very tired, and I haven't been able to vent properly. People either overreact or don't react at all when I talk about this shit, so I'll leave it to whoever has the balls to actually make the effort.

Anyway... Ayn Rand is an admirable women for making the statements she's made over her lifetime, and I support her, but I won't adhere to or abide by her words. It's possible I don't have the balls for it, but it could also be that I do, and just not the temperament for it. I get pissed easily. I just don't show it as easily. Not nearly as easily. And if I were to actually live by my own rules and do exactly whatever the fuck I want for my own sake... I just don't think I have the balls nor the temper for it. I'll just combust eventually.

The other book I recently finished: "Perfume: The Story of a Murderer" originally written in German by Patrick Suskind, and translated into English by John E. Woods. Great book. Not nearly as well written as The Fountainhead. They're definitely two different levels of reading. Perfume is a much easier and quicker read, and more entertaining than thought-inspiring, as The Fountainhead wasn't. It was definitely interesting. I saw the movie adaptation this summer, and immediately got the book the same day. Movie was fucking awesome. I loved it. Mind-boggling, some scenes are. The Fountainhead is way more imaginative and, as I said earlier, thought-inspiring, which is why it took me so much longer to read. Really inspires one to be an asshole, you know? Very refreshing. The Perfume encourages individuality, to a degree, but also to keep a sense of altruism in tact, for the sake of society. But hey, it's a great read. Germans can be so gory. Talk about visionary. Woot.

Okay, so I guess this is where the conclusion would go. But this isn't an essay. And I have a lot of reading to get done. I hope the vent was helpful, both for you and I. First vent on this blog and everything, too. Knowing me, if I do actually blog as often as I proposed to initially, there might be a lot more of these. But also, as is my trend, my saying as such might have actually decreased the chances of that actually happening.

Hope you all enjoyed yourselves.

Jesus Camp

I saw Jesus Camp. Well, I finished it today. I started watching last night, but I fell asleep. Not that it was particularly boring. I was probably tired. Tired from what, I don't know, but yeah, I was dead with about a half hour left.

It was really odd, actually. The movie I mean. It took me a while to catch on to what was going on, because I always confuse the different types of Christianity. I was raised Muslim. So you know... "Christians are bad, you don't need to know more than that. Grr." I always forget the jokes, and stereotypes and all that business. I'm pretty ignorant in this subject, I guess. -shrug- No one informs me, and I don't try too hard to be educated in it.

This movie was about the Evangelicals. It really does seem like brainwashing, maybe not in the everyday conception of it, where you get locked in a facility and are made to repeat and are punished when you go against something. But essentially, that's what it is. And they said it better than anyone else could. They're raising an army. An army of children who will in the future have the power to conduct what goes in today's society and government. They get taught songs. They get homeschooled. They are taken to camp. I mean, these children are sheltered to a very high level, and are taught only what the parents believe to be important, also probably brainwashed.

You can't totally blame them for sheltering their children. Most parents are so scared of reality, that in the long run it really is just simpler to keep them cradled in an environment that the parents personally approve of. Freedom at that age is just a word. No one is allowed even a taste of freedom before they learn speech, but even then, they are sheltered and taught only certain things. The movie really shows you to what extent these children are taught their 'calling' and how do adhere to their 'savior'. And they run a great campaign, too. That the children are the most important people in the world. It's true, too. But they use that as a way to instill their beliefs even deeper into the children. Everything else teaches people that there's much more to the world than just people, just children, than simply growing up into a person. The world gives people so much to worry about. The Evangelists give the children exactly what to worry about, what to care about, and what to focus on. All children want to feel important, and a bit like adults. The Evangelists cater to that in a very controlled fashion. Well props to their success.

I went through that, too, but of course, in a Muslim setting. I got taught what's wrong and what's right. I was definitely sheltered. I was pushed to my best. I was given responsibility and made to feel like important. I was very close to being spoiled. But I'm brown, so of course I got a hell of a lot of beatings in the mix. And I can be stubborn, and I had a mouth. So I got beat a fucking lot. But I mean, they really would've been successful. I had a Hindu friend in elementary school, but I wasn't too close to her, because I thought she was dumb, because she Hindu. I got along best with Muslims. I thought everyone who wasn't Muslim was useless and dumb, to an extent. One of my favorite teachers was Jewish though, so I guess you can't be too sheltered in a public school. The negations of my upbringing started early.

The Evangelists don't view what they do as brainwashing. They are wholeheartedly raising their children with the best intentions at heart, and with a wholehearted belief. They're trying to give children, who they believe to be the most important people though not the most experienced, the best that they can achieve. But that strong belief in children might also have bad affects. They suppress sex, and when something is put on a pedestal, they often become the same thing. A lot of them might be burgeoning some very innate, intimate feelings for these children they're putting such a large piece of their life into. And I really do believe that some of those children will be tramatized as they grow up, while others will be so strong in their brainwashing, that they will either be very successful or very miserable.

Some of the kids that the movie showed were just.... Haha. One I'm almost sure if going to kill himself. One might grow up to be a pedophiliac pastor himself. One might grow up to marry a pastor and beat her kids to a pulp if she gets that far. It's definitely thought inspiring.

I don't know if the people who made the film were of the opinion that what the Evangelists were doing were right or wrong, but the way the movie ended made me think that it was a movie to support the cause. Documentaries tend to end on a positive note, and this documentary ended on the main preacher saying that these children will grow up and do exactly what they were trained to, and she had a lot of faith in that.

Not that I'm against faith, and nor am I total Anarchist or Atheist, but essentially forcing anything for or from children, be it ideas, food or cock, is disgusting.